I am officially back in Australia.
On Wednesday Cate and I sat down at the coffee shop on the Thai-Cambodian border to have coffee and complete my debrief report for Global Interaction, which involves a lot of questions about how I have coped in Poipet, what I have learned, how I have grown, and what my thoughts are on what I will do next and how I will go about it. Of course a lot of these questions haven’t quite developed clear answers in my head yet, and there wasn’t an expectation that I be able to answer all the questions in full (or even in part!), but it has been helpful for me to look back and see what God has already been putting on my heart, and where he might be leading me in the future.
One piece of travel advice that Dad gave me before I left Australia three months ago – some of his last words he said to me before I got on the plane – was this: “Always remember to look back.” This advice had originally been given to me because I largely had to travel alone between Australia and Poipet, and between Poipet and other destinations, so there was no one to look out for me if I left something behind. This advice was given so that I could make sure I didn’t lose or misplace anything, but I’ve realised how important it is to look back on our memories too.
I have spent a large amount of my time in this country looking forward – looking towards the next task, the next activity, the next lesson. In doing so, I’ve realised my time has gone by very quickly, and I’m already leaving, thinking to myself, “Where did that three months go?” I am beginning to accept that God’s plan is different for me than the one I expected, and he has already prepared this journey ahead, whatever that journey may be. I just need to be willing to follow Him.
To those of you who have so faithfully and prayerfully supported me during this time, thank you for that blessing. I so appreciate your support and I ask that you will continue to pray for me as I close this chapter and open a new one in my life back in Australia. So far I don’t know what this next stage of my life will involve, but I trust that God knows exactly what he is doing, so with that confidence I will walk forward into the unknown.
May He bless you and keep you,
May He make his face shine upon you, and be gracious to you.
May He lift up His countenance upon you, and may He give you peace.
(- Numbers 2:24-26)